Today I want to share with you a video of a track from a new band to me – Bad Pollyanna.
This track gut punched me last night.
My rational mind knows that I have never been alone in my Mental Illness, I have sat in full waiting rooms and read enough Mental Health Blogs to know that there are legion of us out there. However, when, in the middle of the night and I am sat on the side of the bed in the dark and things got a little too loud in my head, I don’t think I have ever felt so alone, or when I am out and things got a little too crazy and the world swamped me and it feels like it wants to eat me alive, I have never felt so vulnerable.
This song just for a few minutes lifted me up and reminded me that there are others out there and I and others with problems sit on the shoulders of those who support us when we are not quite as strong as we are on our better days.
You can find out more about Bad Pollyanna at their website www.badpollyanna.com where you can get all of their social media details from to keep up to date with them.
A few weeks back I posted that I had gone through a creative block of late and that I had found a really great list from someone I follow on Twitter @Suzie81blog. Well things still aren’t swinging and groovy in the creative lands of my mind for one reason or another, but hey, it’s swings and roundabouts at the moment. Creativity isn’t the only thing keeping me away from writing right now; health, wealth and perceived wisdom has a little to do with it too. (more…)
I have had a migraine headache for 5 continuous days now. To begin with painkillers would alleviate the pain for a while, but ultimately the pain would return. After three days, painkillers and my prescribed drugs stopped working… It’s a grand life!
This morning (day 5) I began thinking, maybe slightly deliriously, what would I do to finally do to get rid of this headache once and for all; this is what I came up with.
Return to the Stone Age and whittle the hind leg bone of an animal and trepanning my skull and see if the evil spirits escape my head, because surely anything that hangs around for this long must be Supernatural.
Have Miley Cyrus re-enact the Wrecking Ball music video and have a wrecking ball smashed into my head over and over. This would surely be preferable to having no real reason for the pain!
I would like to have one of the remaining 3 White Rhinos come into my small Front Room and continually run and gore me in the head! This would ultimately render me unconscious, something I have been unable to achieve naturally in the past week.
Call in Father’s Karras & Merrin for a Quick Exorcism – Can’t hurt any and I wouldn’t mind being tied to the bed for a week or two! I could catch up on some of the radio plays I have missed whilst not being able to concentrate due to the headaches.
I here by offer to babysit a roomful of colicky babies for a full 24 hours, this would preferably take place all in one room as the screaming would obviously be a hell of a lot less painful than what is going on in my head right now!
If this migraine isn’t resolved by midweek, I may have to resort to extreme measures. I may have to bring out the Justin Bieber and 5 Seconds of Summer CD’s obviously this is a last resort as this would constitute a mental torture and could end up scarring me for life, but drastic times call for drastic measures! Please don’t ask what happens if it lasts to the weekend… 1D.
So those are my options. Anyone else have any others? Drop them in the comments section or over on Facebook, at this point I am open to anything as you can probably see.
I have seen loads of different lists of blog prompts over the past couple of months, but Suzie’s stood out to me (I think it was because it had 46 items and not the nicely rounded 50)
Reading through the list it ignited ideas in my head and a spark set off in my head. (more…)
A long time ago I learnt a valuable lesson in life. Don’t sweat the opportunities that you miss as they have gone and you can’t get them back, just move on and wait and try to grab the next one. However, when you are reminded of one of those opportunities and how close you came to having one in the palm of your hands it can really sting, I mean REALLY sting. (more…)